You, my innermost beloved being,
I know how hard you are striving
to do everything well and rightly.
I know about your desperate struggle
to avoid everything that could
cause pain to other beings.
And yet it happens again and again.
You cannot manage to avoid pain completely,
neither your own nor that of others.
I AM with you even in the darkest hours,
in which you are burdened down by anxiety and grief
and I know:
Feelings of guilt and inadequacy hurt so much!
Surrender, humility, the courage to be humble…
Stop fighting against your weaknesses!
They belong to you as starting capital in this life,
just as much as your strengths and talents do.
Say YES to them!
Give up your demand
to ever be able to become
an exclusively “good person”.
Lay this demand on the altar of Grace.
You will never be able to fulfill it.
Your role in this game of life allows it not.
You could start pushing yourself more and more,
really exerting yourself into total exhaustion
–you do have this option– and still
you would never avoid inflicting pain on others,
the pain that they themselves as souls
have brought forth into their lives
which allows them to grow into love.
You cannot and you could not ever,
with any amount of effort,
manage to escape your soul agreements.
Destiny is stronger than your demand to always be good.
Vow to your Self that you will willingly and unconditionally
commit yourself to that which wants to be fulfilled
and keep in mind:
You do not know how and in what time
all of this will lead to a love so deep
that will make all of this long-lasting heaviness worthwhile.
Through the unconditional acceptance of everything,
you will find peace and forgiveness.
Truly I tell you:
In every moment of your life,
you have acted in the best possible way
according to your structure
–like every human being on earth–
and what grows from this,
lies in the hands of God.
Leave it there!
Open yourself to salvation by allowing Him
to decide when and how it can serve love!
HE LOVES ALL! HE LOVES YOU – IN EVERY MOMENT!
This promises you
Your friend Christ
through Marina Kaiser (copyright)
and Leon Hieros (translation)